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[DEVON T. MANNING]

This tour seemed to be more about trying not to screw up then focusing on her music. It was still a competition with a prize, Devon needed to keep that in mind. But how could she think straight? Her best friend, Caleb, who she used to love, now couldn't stand her. She couldn't think of him without feeling terrible. Letting him go had been terrible. She really didn't know why she had, but now she almost regretted it. But then she remembered Parker. Parker, her bets friend. Parker, who was always there when her relationship with Caleb was sometimes hard. He had been the boy she fell in love with at the end. 'You got the brother you wanted in the end. Caleb's words were stuck in her head. Framed, locked away, and double-wrapped.

She sighed and ignored the appealing food, sinking into the couch. This food court was inside, and amazing. The food court was always doubling as a lounge. It was an amazing sensation for Devon to just lose herself in the crowd of people. She wanted to get out of her cage, lose herself for a while. That seemed like it would help. But it wouldn't, and she knew that. She couldn't leave this mess behind. That would just hurt Caleb and parker even more. And what about Minerva? They'd gotten along decently for a while, but now she was dating Caleb and all. Devon would not be surprised if Minerva hated her or thought she was stupid. Half of the time that's what Devon thought of herself, too.

Maybe her life's theme song was According T You. Maybe she should sing a cove.r Maybe she could fix this all. Maybe that would never happen/ Life was filled with too many What-If's and Maybes. Devon wanted to know for sure. She wanted to know for sure who was her friend and who wasn't, if Parker loved her or not, if Caleb hated her or not. Her eyes flew open and she sat straight up. Maybe this was her life's new mission. To find the answers she needed so desperately.

Tags: Seren/Min
Notes: i likey, but its shortish. we havent rped in so long, xD
Outfit: cominnnng

[MINERVA L TRESCOTT]

Everyday she woke up, opening her eyes to a breathing, living world that she would rather sleep right through again, there was something to be said about her. She did this, did that, did Caleb, did anything. Or the fact that she didn't do this, didn't do that, didn't do Caleb, didn't do anything. And she was tired of hearing about her life from everyone else. But, maybe she liked it. Her life was a pain, was trying to breathe everyday, living for everyone else, trying to hold on to the last bit's of sanity that she didn't exactly know if she wanted or not. They made her life sound so exciting. But really, she just holed herself up, usually with Caleb, and tried to stay alive for him, or anyone who loved her, although she was sure they were few and fading. But at least it was a bit of a purpose for her, interestingly enough.

And here was karma, thrashing it's ugly face at her again. She had left with no warning, and now it seemed that Caleb had. It was too confusing, everything that everyone did. And her arm was on fire. And she was just stupid, again, like always. It seemed that's all life was to her. And her only release, singing, was caged in her chest, like a bird. She could feel it ticking away, it's little heart beating poorly and faintly. Her jacket was unzipped so the cold could get to her core, where as most people would want to stay warm. It didn't make a difference to her. But things were getting better, they were always getting better. She hoped she could hold on long enough for everything to stay in the direction it was going.

Pulsating sound, and darkness beat down in her spine, and everyone around her pushed. It was suffocating, but a release. Like this, no one would notice her face, and the fact that some of her eyeliner had dripped like she had been crying. Because she had been, after he opened the floodgates, there were a lot of tears to make up for. And it was so hard to get on without Caleb. He held her together, she had told him. it was a different relationship then any she would have thought she would have. No, it wasn't simple. No, they had to fight for it. But somehow, it was as easy as breathing. Because she could do whatever she wanted, could tell him anything. And he was selfless, made sure the repercussions weren't bad. And even in the rough times, it was too easy too fall back on him.

But now, she wished she hadn't had come outside of her cocoon. She wished life would stop again, wished that she hadn't thrown that plate, wished she had those comforting arms guiding her through the throngs of people instead of navigating it blind, and alone. She was stumbling and tripping up every step of the way. She found her way to a couch, and had to do everything to resist curling up in a ball. She turned her head at the girl sitting next to her. Her mouth formed a surprised little 'o' and she gasped. The girl of infamy, Devon.

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[DEVON T. MANNING]

The couch caved in a little, all Devon saw was a flash of blonde hair. Then she looked up, her guard immediately going up. Too bad Devon was so sweet and bad at defending herself. Anyone with a mind knew this wouldn't go too well. "Hi." She would add her name, but Devon didn't know what to call her. Honestly, they never talked much. Everyone called her Min, but those were her friend. Devon didn't know how Minera thought of Devon. Hopefully well, because that's what she aimed for. It was jut another question that she needed the answer too.

"How are you?" Devon asked somewhat carefully, gauging the older girl's reaction. Suddenly, Devon felt young again. In a bad way. Like suddenly this 20 year old girl's appearance made Devon foolish. Like every decision she made was wrong, incorrect, like she needed to learn more about the world. Hadn't she seen enough? Enough of pain, sadness, but also enough of happiness? It's not like Minerva was any better than Devon, no matter how large their fan-bases were or anything. She watched the older girl, waiting for a response.

Tags: Seren/Min
Notes: i likey, but its shortish. we havent rped in so long, xD
Outfit: cominnnng

[MINERVA L TRESCOTT]

There was something surreal about being here with the other girl. It surprised her, amde her scared, and made her insecure at the same time. She didn't know how to react, or anything. It was the weirdest sensation, and so she waited silently, looking at Devon in the strangest way, until she heard her words. She unfroze slightly, but she instantly reverted back t her bitchy ways. They slipped on like an old glove, or sock or something. But she hadn't used them in such a long time, she hadn't been mean in forever. She hadn't interacted with anyone besides Caleb or her friends in forever. And so it felt strange to get her guard back up at the girl. She sniffed slightly. "I don't know why you'd care, Devon." All you've done is make everything harder. Now I see the way he looks at me. He's trying to make up for the heartbreak you caused him. Sometimes it's not like he loves me, it's like he likes the idea of loving someone that wasn't you. Who knew, maybe she'd get the chance to voice her thoughts in a moment. But for now she just narrowed her eyes, and looked at the girl condescendingly. Maybe she'd heard rumours about Minerva, but Min was just a naturally bitchy, cold girl. It wasn't anything personal, at first, but then it morphed, as she looked at how uncomfortable Dev was. You deserve every moment of it. She shocked herself a little with these thoughts of malevolence towards her.

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[DEVON T. MANNING]

Ohgod. Now Devon felt even worse. She thought about how she hurt Caleb and Parker plenty...But Minerva! Devon really didn't want to jeopardize her and Caleb's relationship, but
he was so in love she doubted that would happen. She frowned, a confused look on her face."Why do I care? Because I'm nice and for this tour to work out we all have to get along." Stating the facts. Being straight-forward and honest. That was Devon, totally true. The girl just had no bitchy edge to her. In this case? Quite unfortunately.

Devon felt bad for Min. Everyone knew the girl had 'problems' and a rough history. And Devon had grown up so perfect. With the perfect boyfriends. And the perfect family. And a perfect band. She frowned. "How did I make anything hard?" She asked, confusion written all over her face. No. Sense. At. All. Why did she seem to hate Devon so much? All she felt like she could do was be nice, apologize, and make up for it in favors. That's how Devon worked. She lived in a modern fairytale. She loved everyone and they loved her back.

Tags: Seren/Min
Notes: poor devon
Outfit: cominnnng(still)

[MINERVA L TRESCOTT]

Deep breaths. Devon was naturally a good girl. Min wasn't. She'd grown tough through all of this, and this was no time to drop her guard. She wasn't going to take mercy on this girl. Because I'm nice... "Too bad I'm not. You learn after enough not to be, Devon. And for some reason, I'm almost sad you still are. It means that something bad still has to happen. And that's a mean thing to say, but like I said before..." She shrugged. She was being entirely true. If Devon was still a sweetheart through all of this, then it meant it would take something pretty heart wrenching to turn the girl into a normal person. Her eyes softened a little bit at the girl though. She almost felt pity for her. So instead she tucked her hair behind her ears, and pursed her lips again. When Dev asked if anything was harder, Min had to take deep breaths and think a little clearly, before she jumped the girl. The more she thought about it, it made her sad. And she could feel the question peeling her back. She hung her head down, looking at her hands pressed together in her lap. One tear fell on them, but with her unruly hair, and the way her head was, she guessed the other girl didn't see. Her voice was only a whisper. "You broke his heart. Like, twice. How does that make things easier?" They could try as hard as they wanted too, but the history didn't change things.

She looked back up at her, and wiped her hand under her eye, and then her moment of weakness was over. "So what do you plan to do about all of it? You can't just think you fixed everything. It's still as messed up as before. And for the record, even though you probably already forgot about it, nothing happened between me and Parker. I have Caleb, and that's enough for me." The pressure she inflicted on the last word was meant to be cutting. Meant to be the reason for Devon to think a little more. To grow up. You were stupid enough to let him go.

OOC;poor dev? POOR MIN!
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[DEVON T. MANNING]

Devon shook her head. "You have it in your mind that it's normal to be a bitch. That it's normal to always be negative, but it's not. No matter what could happen to me, and nothing worse than this, I would never be mean to someone just because I hurt on the inside." Speaking her mind. Devon was speaking the truth. She was hurting too, because everyone else hurt-because of hr. So much pain But Devon took it all in stride, tried to ignore it.

Min hung her head down, and Devon wondered if she had done something wrong. Devon felt helpless, hopeless, lost. She was in a large crowd and didn't no what direction to turn. She wanted to be with Parker, but that was pushing Caleb away. And trying to make it up to Caleb, she had no idea how Parker would react. Then this older girl next to her was just a wingless bird. Vulnerable, lost, with no means of flying anywhere. Devon felt the same. It felt bad. "It's not like I knew..." He hid it from me. The words, the thought, so foreign. Caleb never hid something from Devon before. It was all good intentions, but they had made this mess and someone needed to clean it. Caleb tried, now it was Devon's turn. Maybe Parker would wind up being the hero, of Min the heroine. All more fucking maybe's.

Devon shrugged. "I'm not exactly sure yet. I know I'll have to apologize to a lot of people. And make some special arrangements. Write a few songs. And I think I can start off with you." That sounded different. "As in, if I apologize then everything will fall into place and be fixed." Did she really just say that? Devon drew back as Min finished her sentence. What does Caleb see in her? She's just being a bitch. Maybe she was different around Caleb, although right now all Devon saw was cast-iron Minerva. She flinched, immediately feeling bad again. But Devon didn't wan to be mean to prove her point. "I know Caleb's great. And I'm really happy for you two. And I hope you work out together. And I hope you won't be so mad at me." All these hopes, were they only pipe dreams? Apologies? Twists and turns in Devon's actions that she had never expected. Last time that happened, Min started the band with Caleb and him and Devon broke up.
Maybe Devon was impulsive, rash, maybe Devon needed more confidence. Maybe's.

Tags: Seren/Min
Notes: poor devon
Outfit: cominnnng(still)

[MINERVA L TRESCOTT]

She sighed, and stood up. "I'm not mad at you. I can't really be. You haven't done anything to me. I may be a bitch and a skeptic, but I'm no illogical idiot. But I can resent you. You haven't done anything to me, but you've done things that affect me. And, so, I can resent you. But I can't be mad." She walked over to the girl, and looked down at her. I know what she's thinking. She doesn't like me. She think's Caleb is silly for liking me. I think that too. "Yea," she whispered. "I don't know why he likes me either." She rubbed her eyes again. She was a loss, she was an entirely useless girl. And yet she still floundered in her half flight, waiting for the moment when the wind would pick her up and send her on her way again. "I can accept your apology, but you can't undo things, Devon. No matter what you say, you can't undo feelings. Impact has been made." She zipped up her jacket. Well this has been interesting. She couldn't think of anything to say now, all she could do was look at the girl, and wish that Devon had never met Caleb, that his heartache had never been felt. She almost wished she could take the burden off that girl, of everything that she did. And somehow, she admired Devon for feeling the burden and still being so nice and friendly. She knew she wouldn't handle that pressure at all. She knew she would crack immediately. "We lied, we can't go on. This is the time, and this is the place to be, alive." She sang gently, under her breath. She turned from the girl, but called over her shoulder. "See you at the show." And she walked out. This was only the start of forgiveness. She and Dev would meet again, because this was only a band aid on a gaping wound.

OOC;will you still post so i know her reaction?...
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[DEVON T. MANNING]

Devon watched Min, her head tilted to the side slightly. Contemplating what made the other girl suddenly seem so...well, logical. She sat back, looking up at Minerva and feeling very vulnerable in her position. Devon, vulnerable? Yeah...That sort of makes some sense. It took her a minute for her mind to catch up to the current conversation. "Well, I mean, I'm sure you're pretty great, if he loves you so much." Devon said carefully, trying to chose her words.

Devon shrugged. "But don't you see? Apologies and accepting them is the first step towards healing. I know I can't undo, but there's still a way to make everyone feel better." Devon said, still feeling totally devoted to her cause. Devoted, Devon. A new super-heroine name, maybe? Devon didn't know how to feel. Overwhelmed by her situation. Happy that Min wasn't mad, but she was still resentful.

So now all Devon needed to do was talk to Parker. And of course, Caleb.

Tags: Seren/Min
Notes: totally short and suckish, but i guess it shows her reaction decently
Outfit: pffft just imagine something